Podcast Script: Episode 8 – Angel of Love

Welcome to The Three Petals podcast. I’m your host Jim Trofatter and I’m glad you could join me today. Today’s episode is going to be different. Not all the fanfare and orchestrations, perhaps some background bird sounds. Shorter but not necessarily simpler. It’s a rest bit between the episodes on consciousness and physicality and the next series on relationality. Occasionally, I feel we all need a gentle reminder of what our spiritual work is all about. It’s not about the words. It’s not about techniques. It’s not about dharma or traditions. Those help us discern aspects of the path that can help propel us forward and accelerate our evolution, but they are not necessary.

It’s simply about waking up to our authentic nature as human beings and that authentic nature is Love. That’s the long and short of it. We are incarnations of Love. And this whole path that we’re on and what I am describing in the episodes of this podcast is about returning you back to that essential nature of your Being, Love.

But we’re not fully expressing our essential nature as Love, what happened? You were born on this planet. That sounds harsh, but that’s what happened. As a baby you came in with full expression of your Love. No hindrances. No beliefs about what Love is or isn’t, just an innocent flooding of unbounded Love out of every pore of your body. Look at a newborn. The face, the energy, the pure Love just gushing forth and people responding to it. “Oh, look at that beautiful baby. Oh, how sweet. How innocent. What a bundle of joy.”

Everyone feels the purity of Love from the baby. It feels comforting, nurturing, life-sustaining. But Love has a ruthless side that comes forth spontaneously from the baby when they learn to speak. That innocent voice of Love shines its light on all the shadow places to reveal what is not Love. The lies, the hypocrisy, the hate, the violence, the family secrets. Love penetrates the defensive shells of everyone who comes near the baby. And as the child grows, they speak from their Love. “Mommy, why are you doing that? Daddy that doesn’t seem right. What is this? What is that? Why don’t you Love me?” Love is trying to disentangle the way Love has been distorted by previous generations and society.

But parents and family don’t want their shadows brought into the light. They’ve spent a lifetime building their defenses up so that no one could get to their Love. And so, they begin to tell the child that what they are sensing or intuiting is not correct. The parent’s truth is the real truth. The parents punish the child for shining their light on the dysfunction around them, so the child soon becomes confused. They are just expressing their essential nature, but everyone is telling them that their essential nature is wrong, bad, it harms others. So, the child does what their parents did. They begin to hide their Love so that it no longer harms anyone else. They cover their hearts with psychological and physical armor to prevent Love from shine out and to prevent others’ Love from coming in. Just like everyone else.

But Love is their essential nature, so the child begins to hate their essential nature because it keeps coming forward and getting them in trouble with their parents, the tribe, society. And the child tries so hard to please mommy and daddy by acting like what they want them to act like, but it’s not possible to be what mommy and daddy want. It’s not who they are. The child is now caught in a catch-22. Their essential nature of Love is bad which equates as “I am bad” and they’re not able to be what their parents want them to be because it’s not their essential nature. So, they are failures in their own eyes for not being able to be a better child. This leads to self-hatred, shame and guilt. Powerful emotions that surround and smother their hearts from expressing its essential nature and cause their hearts to ache for the rest of their lives. No wonder addictions are so prevalent on this planet. How else are we going to survive day by day without numbing the pain.

But Love continues to shine through even after the child has put so much effort and energy into suppressing it to remain acceptable to the tribe. And that Love now shines on the dysfunction arising in the child. This puts a huge pressure on the child’s system. Love wants to shine forth, but Love is bad. Defense mechanisms must be continually created and updated to prevent Love from accidently pouring forth through their Being. This is the state of humanity. We are all Beings of Light and Love just wanting to express our authentic nature, essential nature on a planet where that essential nature is considered bad, wrong and must be hidden at all costs. This is the ocean of humanity that we swim in. It’s dark, oppressive, mind-numbing and violent.

The spiritual path is all about removing those survival mechanisms so that our body-minds can express our Love authentically again, but we must first dismantle all the defensive strategies to the expression of that Love in order to do that. This can be terrifying. Those strategies have kept me alive to this point in time and now you’re asking me to drop those strategies. What will protect me from the judgment and persecution of others and especially from myself. You want me to take down all my defenses? Are you crazy?

Yes and Yes.

It really comes down to “Why do I give a rat’s ass what other people think of me?” We’ve become so hypervigilant to the subtle glances of disapproval form those around us, their tone of voice that says to reconsider what wants to come out of your mouth at this moment, their stance that says, “I’m about to go into my defensives, so you might want to back off while you can.” We sense all of that and we rush back into our turtle shells of self-protection avoiding conflict whenever we can. Why subject ourselves to further violence.

But Love wants to burst forth. Love wants to stop lying and speak its truth, because to do otherwise hurts our hearts. It’s a violation of our Being. It’s violence against ourselves. Love wants to Love others. It wants to bring its gifts forward so that others can benefit from our Love, our Truth. Love wants to be of service to the planet. This is its primary function. We are each in service to the other and the planet, but that is different than I am here to serve you specifically. Expecting me to serve you is not the reciprocity that loving service is asking. Love asks us to be of service to each other.

But we need to understand that even though Love is ruthless about shining its light, we need to be aware of our impact on others as our Love shines outwards. When we hold back our Love, our truth, our authentic nature, because we are trying to not harm the other, we give our power over to them and we become the victim. This path is all about us reclaiming our power as sovereign beings and giving up our identification with being a victim. But our world views Love as weak, pathetic, something to take advantage of, it wants people to be victims and to live from victim consciousness. But Love is. It is true power, it is truth, it is indestructible. It is the fundamental ground of our Being.

So, why do I let their words affect me? That is a question I spent a year working on. I finally realized that my words are my words. If they come from my heart, they are going to penetrate the other and that will affect their defenses. My intention is to do no harm and if my words are spoken with that intention, then when there is an activation in the other, an impact on their Being, then it is simply shining a light on their defenses, their way of hiding Love asking them to relax their defenses. I recognize this and may apologize for causing them distress, but it is their activation, their issue, and they are responsible for exploring what it means to their expression of their authentic self. And you must remember, just because you’ve chosen a path to bring you Love out again, doesn’t mean that those around you want to release their Love again. They’re as terrified as you are about the repercussions of that. The shame, the guilt, the self-hatred are all there ready to be released so their Love can shine forth, but the reservoir of those emotions is too much to bear for many. So, it is better to remain defensive than go through that grueling process of releasing what needs to be released.

So, we are beings of Love but based on recent psychedelic journeys I’ve taken, a better description of who and what are would be: Angels of Love. We are divinely human beings here to bring Love to a planet where the suppression of Love is the rule. Love is. It doesn’t need explanation or justification. You don’t need to do anything to express your Love. It naturally flows from your Being. We actually have to expend a lot of energy to suppress our Love, but we don’t need to do anything to express it. It’s who we are, uninhibited channels of divine Love flowing into creation.

And this Love simply shines its light on all the hypocrisy of this world, the hatred, the violence, the lies, the bullshit. Love is untangling the quagmire of dysfunction on this planet, and it doesn’t need anyone’s permission to do so. It’s what is. Everything is Love and Love wants to flow freely, unobstructed through all of existence. If you’re connected to your heart at all, Love is asking you to step forward at this time to shine itself on all the crap that is happening in our communities, our states, our countries, our planet. Don’t give a rat’s ass what people think of you, that’s their opinion and has no bearing on the expression of Love that you are.

And I recognize that it’s not just easy to say, “I don’t care what you think. I’m just going to be the Love that I am,” but Love is asking those of you who are capable of stepping forward at this time to do just that. We focus first on the work of untangling our own dysfunctions. Don’t worry about the others. What they do is their business. Tend to your business. This is not narcissism, it is self-Love arising again. When you free your Love to flow unhindered once again, you’ve done more service for the planet than all the lightworkers who feel the need to save humanity from their dis-ease of being but aren’t doing the work themselves because they are supposedly beyond all that. We are never truly beyond it. Our dysfunction is humanity’s dysfunction and humanity’s dysfunction is also ours. We are not separate from the ocean we swim in. We are an integral part of the planetary healing process and everything we do informs the whole ocean.

Now, we may experience fear or terror that Love is going to ask us to do some outrageous things. It might. But that doesn’t mean that you will have to stand in lines of protest or be a target for the powers that be. That may be your choice. But just shining your Love from your meditation seat can be enough. Your Love will join its radiance to the collective field of those others expressing their radiance and Love. The more who stand firmly in their Love, the greater that field becomes, the more the planet is transformed back to the paradise that it always was and that we never left. 

When you stand in your Love, you recognize that we are one species, one humanity and that any division below that is completely arbitrary. When you can get to that point in your expression of Love - where every human is your brother and sister, every human is your peer, every human is Love struggling to express itself, you’ve reached a profound milestone on your journey. We are more than One on an intellectual level, we are completely interconnected and interdependent with all other humans, all of life on this planet, Gaia and the whole Cosmos. And we realize that our true family is not one defined by biology, but by those people who truly meet us as equals and who recognize our inherent Self-worth and wish nothing but grace and beauty for our lives.

Even those living the hypocrisy, the hate, the lies are beings of Love trapped in a body-mind that has been mostly closed off from accessing their Love. Their hearts are exceptionally armored and defended. They are in pain, too, and they deserve compassion also. We can offer that compassion to them. That’s a tall order. It’s the way of the Bodhisattvas, Buddha, Jesus, Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr as well as scores of others. One person truly expressing their authentic nature as Love can affect the planet for millennia.

So remember, you are an Angel of Love. Period. It is not a question, it is not up for debate, and you are not looking for feedback about whether that is right or wrong. It’s simply a statement of fact. You do not need to explain yourself to anyone. You are simply Love incarnate. You are the full expression of Divinity incarnating itself as a human being. If there is one mantra you want to have for the rest of your life it might be “I AM AN ANGEL OF LOVE.”